Good bye

This is my last entry here. I left Canada on the first of May after 4 months. I had the happiest 4 months of my life there. I wish I could have stayed, but life goes on. Good bye! And see you soon!

King of Fire

The Creator

There are two types of creators in the world. One type of creator works with objects - a poet, a painter, they work with objects, they create things. The other type of creator, the mystic, creates himself. He doesn't work with objects, he works with the subject; he works on himself, his own being. And he is the real creator, the real poet, because he makes himself into a masterpiece.

You are carrying a masterpiece hidden within you, but you are standing in the way. Just move aside, then the masterpiece will be revealed. Everyone is a masterpiece, because God never gives birth to anything less than that. Everyone carries that masterpiece hidden for many lives, no knowing who they are and just trying on the surface to become someone.

Drop the idea of becoming someone, because you are already a masterpiece. You cannot be improved. You have only to come to it, to know it, to realize it. God himself has created you; you cannot be improved.

Osho Ah, This! Chapter 1

Commentary:

The Zen master in this card has harnessed the energy of fire and is able to use it for creation rather than destruction. He invites us to recognize and participate with him in the understanding that belongs to those who have mastered the fires of passion, without repressing them or allowing them to get destructive and out of balance. He is so integrated that there is no longer any difference between who he is inside and who he is in the world outside. He offers this gift of understanding and integration to all those who come to him, the gift of creative light that comes from the center of his being.

The King of Fire tells us that anything that we undertake now, with the understanding that comes from maturity, will bring enrichment to our own lives and to the lives of others. Using whatever skills you have, whatever you have learned from your own life experience, it is time to express yourself.

Solutions

We all need tasks which are making us encountering problems. Which makes us think about solutions we might need to search for guidance and we might use our previous experiences to find the solution. It seems so easy afterwards... For half a day I slipped back to my old habits. Believed the game I played. The story and the roles I created to the illusion we had. But there is nothing else just limited time. Makes us rushing makes us wanting something more which may not exist at all. Just let it go. It will be fun to be home. HOME. Sounds like windows edition for me... nothing else. Maybe somewhere my past and somewhere i hope my future.

Queen of Fire

Sharing

As you move above to the fourth center - that is the heart - your whole life becomes a sharing of love. The third center has created the abundance of love. By reaching to the third center in meditation, you have become so overflowing with love, with compassion, and you want to share. It happens at the fourth center, the heart.

That's why even in the ordinary world people think love comes out of the heart. For them it is just hearsay, they have heard it; they don't know it because they have never reached to their heart. But the meditator finally reaches to the heart. As he has reached to the center of his being - the third center - suddenly an explosion of love and compassion and joy and blissfulness and benediction has arisen in him with such a force that it hits his heart and opens the heart. The heart is just in the middle of all your seven centers - three centers below, three centers above. You have come exactly to the middle.

Osho The Search: Talks on the Ten Bulls of Zen Chapter2

Commentary:

The Queen of Fire is so rich, so much a queen, that she can afford to give. It doesn't even occur to her to take inventories or to put something aside for later. She dispenses her treasures without limits, welcoming all and sundry to partake of the abundance, fertility and light that surrounds her.

When you draw this card, it suggests that you too are in a situation where you have an opportunity to share your love, your joy and your laughter. And in sharing, you find that you feel even more full.

There is no need to go anywhere or to make any special effort. You find that you can enjoy sensuality without possessiveness or attachment, can give birth to a child or to a new project with an equal sense of creativity fulfilled.

Everything around you seems to be "coming together" now. Enjoy it, ground yourself in it, and let the abundance in you and around you overflow.

Stayin

It seems life being funny is proved once again. It was too easy... but for everything I have to pay some price... I wonder what will that be? I hope I will do a good job and the trust I got is not in vain. Now I have to plan a little more ahead... I feel there is a lot of work ahead of me. Let's hope I am ready.

Me

Summer is here. Sunny warm fun... I am standing somewhere in a gate. Ready to jump?! Who knows... I let go. I let go things and they come back to me. When I dont expect anything any more they happen. I get them. When I dont have a purpose an interest on something/someone I am so successful, but the point I am planning on something or have expectations/hopes towards somebody or something I fail.
Life is strange. My expectations create prejudges. They blind me to see what is real. They keep me captive in my own brain circling in my own universe of thoughts. I have to break through I have to stop thinking I have to reborn

I have to jump soon....

Einstein

"A human being is a part of a whole, called by us _universe_, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."

Quotes from him...
Webpage about him

Detachment

Detachment is:

Ability to allow people, places, or things the freedom to be themselves.

Willingness to accept that you cannot change or control a person, place, or thing.

Ability to maintain an emotional bond of love, concern, and caring without the negative results of rescuing, enabling, fixing, or controlling.

Placing of all things in life into a healthy, rational perspective and recognizing that there is a need to back away from the uncontrollable and unchangeable realities of life.

Ability to allow people to be who they "really are'' rather than who you "want them to be."

Letting Go

To let go does not mean to stop caring.
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off.
It's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another.
It's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own destinies.
To let go is not to be protective.
It's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is to not regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and LOVE MYSELF MORE.

Saturday

Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared. - Buddha

Yesterday night was snowing again. I want to get out and have a picnic!!! (like the one in Beautiful mind ;) )why cant it be spring? :)
In the morning I was thinking about this:
We are messages to each other. But we all are encapsulated and encrypted because we try to protect our data from unauthorized access :P. This way when we communicate it doest make any sense just random bits... because we don't have the code for decoding and taking off the header... but with time we get to know each others patterns and see through the bit stuffing, what we need to keep the connection alive. Even if we have nothing real to say. I am just so inpatient I don't have TIME! This is a message this is an opportunity I know if I don't get it now life will resend it :) if the TTL is over. But I would be just disappointed to waste this now... I think i am ready to receive. But in the other hand it is always a full-duplex communication. And we are frightened, because we can't know for sure who is an authorized accessor as long as we didn't exchanged some secret keys :). It is such a nice metaphor.

End is close

Wow it is snowing again :). Already 10 cm now and it wont stop. :D My journey is coming to an end in Canada. Time to count the dead. I had a great time here. Found good friends a nice school and a lot of oportunities. I wish I could stay longer I wish this half a year would last forever. But for sure it will stay with me for a long time... Thank you Canada! Thank you Kaisa, Katie and Rassell! Thank you Kathleen and Donn and Gloria! And for you too Kevin :).

Can I marry him? :P

There are moments when one feels free from one's own identification with human limitations and inadequacies. At such moments one imagines that one stands on some spot of a small planet, gazing in amazement at the cold yet profoundly moving beauty of the eternal, the unfathomable; life and death flow into one, and there is neither evolution nor destiny; only Being. - Albert Einstein

I guess I am becoming buddhist...

Happy April the first!!!!

Awesome joke from Google:
http://www.google.com/tisp/

and todays Calvin and Hobbes:

Snowing

HOw easy to loose happiness. HOw easy to loose balance. How fragile is human nature. And when we are up we always think nothing can bring us down... It is hard to believe when the sun is shining so strong that it will snow again just a few days after. Everything is white, covered with cold perfectness. Self and the nature are in perfect harmony. Dead outside.

Nah I am not that gloomy but it sounds more dramatic this way ;P

Happy Revolution!

I have slept 12 hours. I was searching for someone in my whole life. Who is like me. Why do I search? I have already me... or do I??? I was and am also running away from every restrictions. Because I am restricting myself to becoming myself. Finding myself. I can do anything... but do I want to? The only person who scares me is me. What do I find?

Clancy & Smithers

We have a regular visitor using my window as a door:

I am all right

It seems I havent done anything much today... than listen to this lady singing... like melted dark chocolate sooo creamy and sweet but a slight bitter taste hiding behind...

Madeleine Peyroux

Sleepy Saturday

White clouds chaising each other in the sky, some teasing the sun for a few seconds then floating away. I am listening to new album of Norah Jones: Not to late... It is like drinking a hot cup of tea with cream and honey in a cold winter night in front of a fireplace and watching the dancing snowflakes outside in the moonlight. It is not too late for love!

<3

Women: know your limits

I haven not posted anything for a long time here :) that s because I foolishly went to university, and my brain was getting overloaded from the exam week :P Still have one midterm tomorrow. But I have to post this now:
glumbert.com - Women: Know your limits


PS: I do love kittens!

Color orange

Beautiful still lives from Color orange photo blog

Guarding the gold



Dead 4



Ill miss you

300, the movie from Frank Miller comics

Can't wait till March the 9th. Too bad the film is not historically accurate :P as spartians fought naked...

Trailer1:


Trailer2:


And the music from Trent Reznor:

Játékosság

A mai nap kártyája:



"Tűz Apródja: Játékosság

Amint látni kezded, hogy az élet nem komoly, hanem egyfajta játék, szíved minden terhétöl egyszeriben megszabadulsz...


Az élet ritkán olyan komoly, mint amilyennek mi azt hisszük. És amikor ezt a tényt felismerjük, az élet egyre több és több lehetőséget nyújt a játékra. Ez a nő a kártyán úgy ünnepli az életet, mint egy pillangó, aki épp most kelt ki bábjából, hogy a fény ígérete felé vegye útját. Azokra az időkre emlékeztet, amikor még gyermekek voltunk, kagylóhéjakat gyűjtöttünk a tengerparton, homokvárat építettünk, nem törődve azzal, hogy a hullámok a következő pillanatban le is moshatják azt. Ő tudja, hogy az élet játék, s most épp a bohóc szerepét játssza fesztelenül, színlelés nélkül.
Amikor a Tűz Apródja lép az életedbe, az annak a jele, hogy készen állsz valami frissre, újra. Épp valami csodálatos dolog tűnik fel a láthatáron, te pedig pont megfelelően: játékos ártatlansággal, tisztasággal és tárt karokkal üdvözlöd azt.

"Amint látni kezded, hogy az élet nem komoly, hanem egyfajta játék, szíved minden terhétől egyszeriben megszabadulsz. Többé nem félsz az élettől, a haláltól, a szerelemtől - minden félelmed eltűnik. Az ember ilyenkor nagyon könnyűvé, szinte súlytalanná válik. Annyira, hogy felemelkedhetsz a végtelen égbe.
A zen óriási értéke, hogy alternatívát kínál a "komoly ember" ideájával szemben.
A komoly ember csinálta a világot, a komoly ember alkotta az összes vallást. Ő hozta létre az összes filozófiát, az összes kultúrát, az összes erkölcsi tantételt - minden, amit magad körül látsz, a komoly ember műve.
A zen kilépett ebből a komoly világból. Megteremtett magának egy saját világot, tele nevetéssel, játékossággal, ahol még a legnagyobb mesterek is úgy viselkednek, mint a gyerekek."

Forrás

Old favourit

Sigur Rós from Iceland

Koop

Today's music: Koop
Absolute Jazz from Sweden
Come To Me


An adorable video klip from them:
Baby



Glömd - Forgotten:


Today's game: Red

Csak rák...

"Piros, az Erõ

A piros maga az élet színe, a tûzé, a véré, a veszélyé. Nélküle hiányozna életünkbõl az életerõ, a melegség, az erõ és a szenvedély. Adrenalint pumpál vérünkbe, javítja vérkeringésünket és növeli az energiaszintünket.

Segít megmaradni a hétköznapi élet valóságában, a jelenben és biztonságtudatot nyújt számunkra. Ókori babonák szerint megóv a démonoktól."

Forrás: www.individum.hu/piros.html



Red, the Strength

"Red is the colour of life itself, of fire, of blood, of danger. Without it our life would miss life power, warmth, power and passion. It pumps adrenalin to our blood, makes our blood flow better and our energy level higher.

It helps to stay in the reality of everyday life, in the present and it gives us the knowledge of security. According to ancient superstition it gives protection against demons."

Source: www.individum.hu/piros.html

Taurus, the Bull

Piros, the best match for your personality is Taurus

Taurus, the Bull (April 21 to May 21): This warmhearted and determined partner is just your type. Initially, a Taurus may catch your eye with a romantic gesture or their penchant for having a good time. But as you get to know them, you're even more likely to be drawn to your Taurean's unwavering devotion and dedication. People born under this sign typically know what they want out of life and stick by the decisions they've made. This devotion to their own truths can make members of this sign seem stubborn or critical at times. However, know that most Taureans are also sentimental types who like to focus on their romantic relationships. In the bedroom, you're apt to find that the Bull is a creative and expressive lover with a high sex drive. It's just another aspect of their vital nature, one that finds pleasure in everyday things and has an eye for beauty.

The Zodiac Match Test

Autókkal az emberek ellen

Tisztelt Uram!

A honlapukon fent lévõ megrongált plakátunk kapcsán írok. Sajnos nem derül ki, hogy Önök csinálták, vagy "csak" reklámozzák mások agyszüleményeit. Amennyiben nem Önre tartozik, ne vegye magára.

Lenyûgözött kreatív megynilvánulásuk a Föld védelme érdekében, azt sajnáljuk azonban, hogy ezt mások (mi) plakátunk megrongálásával valósították meg. Ez azért is felháborító, mert kevés olyan autógyár van, amely ennyire szivén viseli, az alacsony fogyasztású, környezetbarát jármûvek gyártását. Ezt hivatalos tanulmány támasztja alá, amely szerint a Fiat autók átlagfogyasztása és ezáltal károsanyag kibocsátása a legalacsonyabb az europai autógyártók között.

Javaslom máskor nézzék meg jobban, milyen plakátot rongálnak meg éppen, addig is ügyvédünknek továbbítjuk "alkotásukat".

Üdvözlettel,

Pálfi Éva
Marketing Manager
Fiat Magyarország Kft.
1123 Budapest, Alkotás u. 53.

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Tisztelt Hölgyem!

A honlapjukon fent lévõ autók kapcsán írunk. Sajnos nem derül ki, hogy Önök csinálták, vagy "csak" reklámozzák mások agyszüleményeit. Amennyiben nem Önre tartozik, ne vegye magára.

Lenyûgözött eltökélt ténykedésük meggazdagodásuk érdekében, azt sajnáljuk azonban, hogy ezt a Föld megrongálásával valósították meg. Ez azért is felháborító, mert kevés olyan bolygó van, melynek sorsát ennyire a szívünkön viseljük, ugyanis egyelõre nem tudunk elköltözni innen. Ezt több hivatalos tanulmány támasztja alá.

Javasoljuk máskor nézzék meg jobban, milyen gyárat építenek éppen, addig is ügyvédeinknek továbbítjuk "alkotásukat".

Üdvözlettel,
A bolygó lakói.

Lacuna Coil - You Create

Hope
seize the invisible
Achieves the impossible
If you look up, there are no limits... no limits...

Vizicsiga - Watersnale

Kiváncsi leszek erre ha felépül: I wonder what would this be like if it will be built up in Budapest:



I got a message from my cat today: pzusöp
I think he is developing his languages skills q quite fast ;)

Kaptam egy üzit a macskámtól ma: pzusöp
Jól halad a nyelvtanulással ;).

És a nap abszolút híre, hogy az első programozás házim 97 pontos lett. :) Jah és egyszerűen Piros néven vagyok regisztrálva. :P

And the news of the day that I got 97 points for my first assignment of programming and I am registered simply as Piros :P.

Önszuggesztió

Smithers itt alszik békésen mellettem, kicsit horkol. Az ölemben is aludt de aztán felvett egy kényelmesebb pozitúrát a mosott ruháim tetején :). Fekete macskaszőr :) jó is az. Lassan kigyógyulok a köhécselésből. Vajon a hazudozásból is? Legalábbis a hangom kezd visszatérni.
Anyu kérdezte mit csinálok egész nap, nem unatkozok?
Próbálok figyelni magamra, meg a cicre, meg arra mit érzek és miért... önszuggesztió?!

Smithers is sleeping peacefully next to me, snorring little. He slept in my lap for a while but then searched for a more comfortable position in the top of my clean laundry. :) Black cat hair :) perfect. I am slowly getting out of my caughing. From lying too? Or at least my voice is coming back.
Mother asked what am I doing whole day, am I not bored?
I am trying to listen to myself, and to the cat, and to what I feel and why... selfsuggestion?!

Sex objects...

Egy érdekes cikk a tudományunk hitelességéről.
An interesting article about our scientific objectiveness...

Are Women Evolutionary Sex Objects?:
Why Women Have Breasts

http://www.colorquiz.com/

Your Existing Situation

Orderly, methodical, and self-contained. Needs the respect, recognition, and understanding of those close to him.


Your Stress Sources

Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.


Your Restrained Characteristics

Wants to broaden her fields of activity and insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic. Distressed by the fear that she may be prevented from doing what she wants; needs both peaceful conditions and quiet reassurance to restore her confidence.


Your Desired Objective

Wishes to find her stimulation in a voluptuous atmosphere of sensuous luxury.


Your Actual Problem

Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives.


Your Actual Problem #2

Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others.

Smithers

Társat kaptam. Áldott vagyok. Pár kép róla.
I got company. Blessed me. Some pics about him.

Ákos videókat hallgatok. Teázom. És azon gondolkozom mikor voltam önmagam?
"Bennem most is béke van " És hova lettek az álmaim?

Látod mégis visszajöttem

Itt vagyok. Pontosan két hete. Eddig jártam három üzletben, kiolvastam két regényt, láttam egy filmet moziban. Jártam iskolába, simogattam macskát, nem ettem csokoládét és húst, és programoztam Java-ban. És köhögök.