Good bye

This is my last entry here. I left Canada on the first of May after 4 months. I had the happiest 4 months of my life there. I wish I could have stayed, but life goes on. Good bye! And see you soon!

King of Fire

The Creator

There are two types of creators in the world. One type of creator works with objects - a poet, a painter, they work with objects, they create things. The other type of creator, the mystic, creates himself. He doesn't work with objects, he works with the subject; he works on himself, his own being. And he is the real creator, the real poet, because he makes himself into a masterpiece.

You are carrying a masterpiece hidden within you, but you are standing in the way. Just move aside, then the masterpiece will be revealed. Everyone is a masterpiece, because God never gives birth to anything less than that. Everyone carries that masterpiece hidden for many lives, no knowing who they are and just trying on the surface to become someone.

Drop the idea of becoming someone, because you are already a masterpiece. You cannot be improved. You have only to come to it, to know it, to realize it. God himself has created you; you cannot be improved.

Osho Ah, This! Chapter 1

Commentary:

The Zen master in this card has harnessed the energy of fire and is able to use it for creation rather than destruction. He invites us to recognize and participate with him in the understanding that belongs to those who have mastered the fires of passion, without repressing them or allowing them to get destructive and out of balance. He is so integrated that there is no longer any difference between who he is inside and who he is in the world outside. He offers this gift of understanding and integration to all those who come to him, the gift of creative light that comes from the center of his being.

The King of Fire tells us that anything that we undertake now, with the understanding that comes from maturity, will bring enrichment to our own lives and to the lives of others. Using whatever skills you have, whatever you have learned from your own life experience, it is time to express yourself.

Solutions

We all need tasks which are making us encountering problems. Which makes us think about solutions we might need to search for guidance and we might use our previous experiences to find the solution. It seems so easy afterwards... For half a day I slipped back to my old habits. Believed the game I played. The story and the roles I created to the illusion we had. But there is nothing else just limited time. Makes us rushing makes us wanting something more which may not exist at all. Just let it go. It will be fun to be home. HOME. Sounds like windows edition for me... nothing else. Maybe somewhere my past and somewhere i hope my future.

Queen of Fire

Sharing

As you move above to the fourth center - that is the heart - your whole life becomes a sharing of love. The third center has created the abundance of love. By reaching to the third center in meditation, you have become so overflowing with love, with compassion, and you want to share. It happens at the fourth center, the heart.

That's why even in the ordinary world people think love comes out of the heart. For them it is just hearsay, they have heard it; they don't know it because they have never reached to their heart. But the meditator finally reaches to the heart. As he has reached to the center of his being - the third center - suddenly an explosion of love and compassion and joy and blissfulness and benediction has arisen in him with such a force that it hits his heart and opens the heart. The heart is just in the middle of all your seven centers - three centers below, three centers above. You have come exactly to the middle.

Osho The Search: Talks on the Ten Bulls of Zen Chapter2

Commentary:

The Queen of Fire is so rich, so much a queen, that she can afford to give. It doesn't even occur to her to take inventories or to put something aside for later. She dispenses her treasures without limits, welcoming all and sundry to partake of the abundance, fertility and light that surrounds her.

When you draw this card, it suggests that you too are in a situation where you have an opportunity to share your love, your joy and your laughter. And in sharing, you find that you feel even more full.

There is no need to go anywhere or to make any special effort. You find that you can enjoy sensuality without possessiveness or attachment, can give birth to a child or to a new project with an equal sense of creativity fulfilled.

Everything around you seems to be "coming together" now. Enjoy it, ground yourself in it, and let the abundance in you and around you overflow.

Stayin

It seems life being funny is proved once again. It was too easy... but for everything I have to pay some price... I wonder what will that be? I hope I will do a good job and the trust I got is not in vain. Now I have to plan a little more ahead... I feel there is a lot of work ahead of me. Let's hope I am ready.

Me

Summer is here. Sunny warm fun... I am standing somewhere in a gate. Ready to jump?! Who knows... I let go. I let go things and they come back to me. When I dont expect anything any more they happen. I get them. When I dont have a purpose an interest on something/someone I am so successful, but the point I am planning on something or have expectations/hopes towards somebody or something I fail.
Life is strange. My expectations create prejudges. They blind me to see what is real. They keep me captive in my own brain circling in my own universe of thoughts. I have to break through I have to stop thinking I have to reborn

I have to jump soon....

Einstein

"A human being is a part of a whole, called by us _universe_, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."

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